oh my god, NO! not school!! >_< ... bleh. oh well. i have about an hour left before i drift off into sleep. i'll write this blog, and play fire emblem for that hour. i have a very hard time typing the word "emblem." first i type it like elbmel. then elbeml. then i get pissed off and peck letter by letter. E. M. B. L. E. M....! i've fallen in love with that game this past break. why, I don't really know. I feel like playing path of radiance about 5 more times before giving it back to sato, then i'll play radiant dawn eternally. until the next one comes out. i need to find a book to read for enjoyment. i have a whole pile waiting to have their pages turned but i just don't know which one to pick up. to combat paige and her past comment to me about not having brawl, i bought brawl, and i'm experiencing the joys of a super smash game for the first time ever. ever. (how sad is my life?) but better late than never. --- one day over break, my father, a white man, came home drunk and took one look at my bare arms and face in the dim kitchen light while i typed madly at the computer keys trying to figure out my new source of music income, and said to me in that slow, lazy-eyed way... "you are the epidemy of the word 'haole.'" oh my god. "what?" "look at you! you never go outside! you're whiter than i am! and i'm WHITE!" and he slowly trudges up the stairs to lay down on his futon and fall asleep to the whirr of the large television screen. so the next day comes and i tell my mother what my father said, after realizing that my shoulders were actually whiter than my arms, which was a problem considering my prom dress is strapless. and she says... "no! you're not even that white! you should be even more white! and start taping your eyelids again! you're not going to be pretty at prom if you don't take your eyelids. make the rest of you white. then you'll look perfect." it disgusted me how she reminded me of brave orchid in the warrior woman. i'm not sure why because there was nothing distinctly familiar. it must have been the asian. so now i'm stuck between a drunken parent and an asian parent. bleh. | 
